2020 was a stressful, challenging, overwhelming, and often devastating year for everyone on this planet. It was the same for me and my household, on so many levels.
I have been doing my best to deal with everything 2020/2021 has thrown at me. The elevated levels of stress and anxiety have thrown a couple of health scares at me as well.
wouldacouldashoulda is my attempt to process the events of 2021, to allow for some sort of cleansing of my soul. At this point, it remains a "Work in Progress".
As Covid quickly enveloped the globe, it brought not only a threat to mankind's physical health, but also, causing so much damage to the mental well-being of so many.
My emotional pain during this time was fed by many sources - the stress of Covid; the worrying about keeping my loved ones safe, while allowing students into my home studio; the stress of "zooming" for countless hours; the impending spectre of financial doom; but most of all, the absolute shock of losing someone very, very dear to me, in a sudden and completely unanticipated way.
The piece, "In My Pain" is my musical reaction to the darkest days in my life.